Documentation of Me Series: Photograph and Video
Between October 2012 to Feburuary 2013, I have shooted short videos and photographs one every another days in my studio. These works responded to my evelyday life in the studio environment. I attempted to creat a system of security and its failure. By using adhesive tape, strings, and other props, I metaphorically eliminated or reduced information from my face and body. But the action sometimes caused more attention to me, or system required to reveal my face again. I attempted to capture my emotions such as my sense of alienation that occures when I am between cultures. I was interested in how I could illustrate my reactions to daily life in the another culture.
At the same time, I have read the essay "Underground" by Haruki Murakami. In this essay, he talked about the "self " and narratives. He stated that if we lost our ego, we lost the "thread of narrative" which was our self, and no one could live without some sense of a continuing story. And in these narratives, we wore two faces.
" You are simultaneously subject and object. You are the whole and you are a part. You are real and you are shadow. 'Storyteller' and at the same time 'charactor.' It is through such multi-layering of roles in our stories that we heal the loneliness of being on isolated individual in the world."
I was thinking about what is my narrative, whet is my multi-layering of roles in my story that I heal and feel the loneliness of being as an individual in the world? Does my narrative lurk in the personal tendency towards to the isolation and be alone, which I have been having inside of me since my childhood? Or maybe does the inbetweenness which I always feel, flow at the bottom of my narrative?